I dedicate this day to my brothers Gary and Wayne,TO Lindy,Sonny,John,Nanny,Farfel,Manu and to each and every one of you and your families.Together we will save many people from the horrors associated with our addiction,We cant be sure where the road ahead goes but my journey here with all of you has touched me so deep inside that I can not explain my feelings with words,You have make me laught,smile. I have silently cried at your struggles ,celebrated your victories ,been inspired by your spirit .You are all so very special so very unique.Quiting is the very best thing you can ever do for yourself your friends and your family,please continue to plant the seeds of freedom.
Well its been a long time since I have had such a nice birthday,Today I not only celebrate the start of a new year,but the first full day on OUR new site.AND my home mortgage is a go.I am a very lucky guy "333"one day I want to rent a banner and fly it where everyone that can see it will know how lucky I am .My immediate family is enjoying good health .I have changed my screen name to Earlz I am leaving ZOMBIE behind,I NO longer smoke instead I sleep through the night and i have very pleasant dreams,how lucky I am to have my health back,to have made so many new friends,god has been very kind to me,I have experianced so many new emotions as a result of this quit.Things I never expected to happen did,emotions I felt where gone forever came back.I seperated and divorced my now ex-wife of 12 years,she was not a bad person she just could not give me her love .
Weare never too old to quit,we are never to old to learn to share to give to touch to love to feel.We are a very strong group of people we help so many because we have learned to show our inner selves to others,Friendships have grown from our journey here that will forever be part of our lives and our memories.
One day I went looking to buy some cigarettes cheaply,I visited cyber space for the first time,I clicked on SEARCH and found my LIFE,my emotions,flowers the beauty that surrounds me came back.We never know where the road we chose will take us,whats on the other side of the door,taking that first step can be scary,Thank you for the push you gave me,with out you I would be sitting under a tree wondering where my life had gone,waiting for tomorrow with no dreams no hope no love.
Special.thanks to Kathy,Susie,Lindy,Emma your daily trips to see me durning my illness made such a differance in my will to beat what ever I had.
Thank you Lindy and Kayrn for sharing so much with us yiou are angels I know it.
All ways remember that dreams are the door to reality,if we can dream it we can make it happen.
Keep The Quit and grab on and pull someone along with you
Protect the Children
Quit Date 11/19/2000