Well all,  It's day 5 and Iam still doing pretty well.  The euphoric phase is over but still havent had any major withdraw.  Mostly behavor issues.  Went to my mom and dads first time yesterday since I quit and lots of triggers over there.  I always smoked alot more over there.  Stress,  bordom, the root of all that's wrong with me ,  you know...   Without even thinking about it I just started to pick up a pack of her cigs to get one out.  She always smokes the same as I did. If I changed my brand she would change hers.  Well needless to say I didn't smoke but I wanted to .  Not because I craved one just because it what I always did to deal with being over there. 

Don't get me wrong I Love my parents but I really don't like them very much.  Really my whole family I feel that way about to some digree. 

This is the part of not smoking that I was not lookling forward to.  I can usually deal with the withdraw symtoms  its the remembering all the crap in your past present and future that I always stuffed down with every puff. Your made to deal with it because you don't have that drug that helps you to at least pretent everythings all right .  I never learned coping skills   I just learned to stuff stuff stuff and puff puff puff.  I know I need some counceling here but I really really can't afford it.  That 's the reason I am not on meds for my Bipolar.  I've made the choice to never smoke again,but I don't think Iam going to be around in a good mental way to enjoy it.  

I was so focused on the way I was going to feel physically I totally blocked out that this is why I always give up my quit.  Mentally I just can't cope.  I guess I'll at least be a non smoking lunitic.

Thanks for reading,

Meme

5 days is wonderful

you will learn the skills you lack...just keep at it and be positive...

WTG Meme!

Meme...day 5 is excellent!  And, you are able to identify some of your triggers.  Stress was always my big one.  It can be very difficult dealing with parents.  You love them, but there are times you really don't like their behavior, etc.  They often have hidden agendas that they aren't even aware of.

The good news is that you protected your quit.  And eventually, you will wonder why you ever smoked.  You will become comfortable in your new non-smokin skin.

Hang in there...you're doing great!

Well at 5 days you have been thru the worst already physically so that is great!  Congratulations.

The triggers will come but it sounds like you are dealing with them well.  Each time you do something, or see someone that would usually cause you to smoke there will be a little temptation.  Just always remember there is no "just one" and keep on being strong.

If you could afford to smoke, you can afford to get yourself some psych and/or meds.  I really believe it's important to invest in your health just like you made an investment in your addiction.

I know you can deal with everything on your plate!!  It can't be easy, but it's worth it!!

Post often whenever you're feeling blue or have issues with processing the past/present/future.  We're here for you and can help in our little ways. 

It's amazing that you're dealing so well after five days, it's probably going to get a lot easier after this physical battle!! 

You may not can see the glory of you right now because you are so close to the situation, but look at what you did woman! That's got to be one of the biggest triggers I can imagine--being with people you love but don't like, and your brand of cigs just sitting right there. Meme, you need to reward yourself with something nice because you allowed a dragon to walk by you, and you are unharmed.

You stuck by yourself. I think that's awesome!

Gosh Meme,,, I think you did great going over there and not caving.  You should be very proud of you here on day 5. 

Hell week is just over the horizon.  Hold on,,,You are doing it!

I'm jealous of your 5 days! Be proud. It totally sucks to have parents who smoke, doesn't it!

Good for you and not picking up the cigarette. Be proud and pat yourself on the back often.

Dawn

You've made a choice to go med-free and, while I think that may not be wise in some cases, at least try to research foods and healthful ways to help yourself in these areas. For example, omega 3's tend to help with mood. They are abundant in fish and flax oil.

Learning coping skills is a process that everyone goes through--sooner or later. You are doing well in your quit...keep writing and thinking :)