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By mamatanya  on June 23 2009 at 4:28 pm

29, Female
GA, United States
Member Since: February 23 2008


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My mom's cancer has spread to her liver.  She has two cysts.  One is 7 cm, the other is 2.5 cm.  Without treatment, they said that she will go quickly.  With her treatment, they are giving her at least a year.  Tomorrow she is having a pet scan to check her bones and her brain for cancer. That may change her diagnosis.   I'm going to FL to be with her in the next few days.  We are closing on our house and my 3 year old is throwing up so I can't be with her yet.  In a way, it's nice to know that we must all say our goodbyes and to be prepared.  On the other hand, I hate to see my mother suffer or in pain.  She still seems healthy right now.  It is so weird that she is dying.  On Saturday all of her children and her siblings and her mom are going to be with her.  We are having the first complete family get together in years.  This is going to be so special for my mother.  The thought of a cigarette did cross my mind yesterday.  I just knew that it would feel so good in that moment, but I did not struggle, I just knew that like crack or cocaine or alcohol, it would not make anything better and that I did not need it.  I really don't believe that I will ever smoke again.  CIgarettes just cost too much money anyways.  I'd be crazy to start smoking now that the prices are this high.  I'm still so grateful to this board.  Because of this board and the post on Inflammatory Breast cancer, my mother has had extra time to live.  I will always be grateful.  God Bless you all.  Don't smoke!!  

I don't smoke anymore because I don't want to be a smoker!!

 

Message by deelsch  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 5:00 pm 
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So sorry for this news.  My prayers are with you and your family.  This is sad.  Take care. 
I can do it..... I know I can.

Deena

Message by Sophie  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 5:11 pm 
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I wish there was something I could say to make things better for you and your Mom.....just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.....Take care of yourself

TGIF - Thank God I'm Free

Message by sweetp  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 5:11 pm 
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((((((((((((Tanya))))))))))))...!

This is awful....I am so sorry.....going to light a candle for mom and your family.....!

Treasure each moment with mom....!

God Bless...Gotcha in my Prayers....!

Hugs Colleen
"Today I choose not to smoke..."


Message by michellebise67  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 5:27 pm 
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My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom and family.
Mic.

Message by LilPunkin  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 5:29 pm 
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So sorry to hear the news.  I hope you are able to be with your mom soon.  Enjoy this time with your whole family and take lots of pictures while your mom is still feeling well. 


"Whether you think you can or think you can't, you are right."

Message by betsy  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 5:40 pm 
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your mom and all of you are in my thoughts and prayers

betsy QD 11/10/03
Today is the best day to not smoke!

Message by ChinHi  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 7:01 pm 
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 I am so sorry to hear about your mother especially, but even the 3 yr sick is not good either. take care of you too.
KCL = Keep Choosin' LIFE
"Never leave another quitter behind" by BTBASSER
Namaste
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Message by laughinglady  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 10:22 pm 
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Keeping you in our hearts...(((((((HUGS))))))))

"Duc, sequere and de via decede" ~ Lead, follow or get out of the way!!
~Never Give Up~
5/7/09

Message by kmrawley  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 10:30 pm 
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My dear friend, I am so sorry to hear such sad news. I am also sorry that I have lost touch with you. I am sending you a big hug and my deepest sympathies.

Love,

Karla

"Today I do something different!"



Quit date June 15, 2008

Message by keepAsmile  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 10:37 pm 
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Hi, I was afraid to read your post, because of the word Cancer. But I am glad I have.

Your family is a strong one, from what you are writing's. Some families don't want to face, it, so they hide, they fake it.  And your so wise about not smoking, It won't change anything, well know it would make things worse, for you, To give Up a quit for a weaken moment.

so, your in the drivers seat, now! Feeling, and living things in your life.  That is to be Very prod of yourself. Praying for you and your family, to Keep strong.........

  Night
Quit on July 22, 2003- CONGRATIoN on YOUR , fablous QUIT -YOUR the WINNER, Love U!

Message by I'm done  View Journal on June 23 2009 at 11:51 pm 
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I am very sorry to hear this.  I know this is tough on all of you.  Take care.

The first two weeks of your quit will be the hardest thing you do in your life unless you must quit again. Not one puff! --Janet--

Message by shashaaa  View Journal on June 24 2009 at 1:10 am 
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Tanya, I am so sorry to hear this. You and you Mom are in my thoughts n prayers big time sweetie.
I love you lots n lots!   Today we can choose not to smoke !!!   Big Hugssss
Serenity is peace within the storm.

Keep On Keepin On ~!!! Shashaaa aka Tricia Smober date ,,, 2/14/2008 ~ Will be Grr**8

Message by Earlz  View Journal on June 24 2009 at 7:09 am  -  moderator
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My prayers to your mom and your family.
Protect the Children
Quit Date 11/19/2000


Message by Charry Lou  View Journal on June 24 2009 at 8:57 am 
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Very touching & sad. My prayers are with your mom, your siblings, yourself. Life is so fragile, so difficult to hold on to, isn't it? God bless you on your journey.
Charry Lou

Message by ferocious sonja  View Journal on June 24 2009 at 11:27 am 
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my heart goes out to you - take care of yourself - 



They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.
-Andy Warhol

Message by Pupcake  View Journal on June 24 2009 at 12:22 pm 
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So sorry for your news. Yes it's a mixed blessing to know when someone will leave us.  You can prepare but you also are so sad.  In the end I think it helps to know in advance so you get to have special time with the person.

Way to go on staying quit during this time.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Smokefree since May 5, 2009
"The way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain." ~ Dolly Parton

Message by Joppette  View Journal on June 25 2009 at 12:03 pm 
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Tanya, I'm so sorry about Mom, but I understand how you feel.  I got peace from knowing I had time to say all I needed to say to my Mom before she died.  Hospice kept her very comfortable with pain medications, and it was a healing time for us. 

A prayer for your Mom that she does not suffer greatly, and that you get to be with her again.  Best wishes on the closing and the sick little one too. 

Judy


Judy

Living with lung cancer since 2007, and still doing it! Smoke free.
QD: 12/3/2004

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