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Being Set Free Tomorrow
By Joppette
on January 26 2012 at 11:18 pm
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MI, United States
Member Since: July 25 2002
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23 days straight in the hospital! Who would have thought going in for a one hour biopsy, only to stay for a collapsed lung, and then a lobectomy. What is totally amaziing to me is how they fit that giant roller coaster into a 24' x 24' square room! That is what this journey has been. But tomorrow I go home.
The many teams of doctors have so many medications that my nurse said I should get a pain doctor to supervise my meds. He came in today. He explained his plan which involved getting rid of most of the drugs the hospital doctors prescribed. He asked me to trust him, that he will help be get pain free in a couple of weeks! When I told himn about my four year struggle with pain since the last bout with cancer, he promised to help me with those pain issues as well. So I am. None of the myriad of doctors that I've seen in four years have been able to find a solution to this.
Then I read his business card, and saw Palliative Care Services. Most people think that this kind of care is for those who are terninally ill. In the past that is what they did. Modern medical doctors now see that this kind of care is needed for anyone suffering with chronic pain and he's well known for his success rate. He was kind and compassionate. I am excited to get going. I began taking the medications he recommends this afternoon, and look forward to positive results.
Hubs has people lined up to baby sit me (LOL) for the next 7 days. The doctor said I should not be alone for 7 days. They want me to sleep and rest and heal. The baby sitters are there to make sure I don't get up and hurt myself accidentally. They are my dear friends and will prepare breakfasts and lunches for me too. God bless these angels.
He told me to not rush into the chemotherapy right away. He said I had plenty of time to decide what to do, so just heal and get better and then deal with chemo. I like that too. The decisions I have to make will have a lasting impact on the quality of life I will have. 3 doctors asked if I realized that my death certificate would list cause of death is lung cancer unless I got into an accident or something. They wanted me to understand the seriousness of my disease and to be very careful in considering next steps. I almost feel like they think I should not take the chemo. So we shall see. I am not fearful. I will face this and do my best to figure out what is the right solution and go from there.
Four yeas ago I thought I learned to appreciate how precious life is. I did. But as time passed, I got complacent. I still marvel at things others would have wondered why I was making a big deal out of a beautiful flower, or a cardinal in the tree against a backdrop of white snow. So many small things to appreciate. But now it is going to be even more. I want to take in it all, and marvel at the amazing world we live in. I want to live fully and love deeply and let the people I love know that I love them. I'm lucky to have so many to love. I'm blessed.
So I'm going to sleep now. It was a big day with all the doctors coming in and out. I'm ready to sleep and heal some more. God bless all of you.
Judy
Living with lung cancer since 2007, and still doing it! Smoke free.
QD: 12/3/2004
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Message by Earlz
on January 27 2012 at 12:08 am
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It's good to hear from you and that you are going home tomorrow and that you have the help you need until you can get back on your feet . Good luck with the pain doctor I hope he can get you pain free quickly.
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Quit Date 11/19/2000
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Message by Carmin
on January 27 2012 at 12:57 am
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Good morning Judy (South African time)...........
I have read through your journals and am speechless beyond saying thank you for sharing your life as a smoker with us.
I am 38 years old and am on day 18 of my quit. I had a particular bad morning this morning and I now add you to my list of inspiration to get through.
In one of your journals you wrote>>>>>I look back and can't believe that I was in such agony over quitting. The neuropathy damage is horrific.
This statement had the most impact on me............thank you, thank you, thank you..............
QUIT DATE: 10 JAN 2012
Smoking is yours to Choose or Reject. Which do you embrace?
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Message by ozzy
on January 27 2012 at 2:21 am
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Hi Judy
I am so glad you are finally getting home, feeling positive about the future and have angels around you to care for you.
You inspire me beyond belief.
You are in my thoughts.
Ozzy.
Don't dream up thousands of reasons
why you can't do what you want to; find one reason why you CAN.
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Message by Kat_fairykats
on January 27 2012 at 8:01 am
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I have not posted to anyone in months. Just didn't have it in me to be there for anyone else. Then last night Kathy put something in my journal about Lurose and I had to make an entry to honor her. As I was reading through her journal, I saw that you had noted to her, too, and felt the same about her, so was going to note you or email you today. Now I see this.
It it heartbreaking that you are going through pain and torment again. I am glad you are going home, because home is where the real healing can happen. Love and Light, dear Judy. Please know that there are people out 'here' in the void who are thinking of you and wishing you well.
"When you quit, your forevers will come to you."
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Message by skipper8
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I am so glad you are going home- what a huge relief that must be for you and Randy..........
I think you are one of the brave ones Judy and you face your issues with compassion and reality.....I know once my friend got with a pain management specialist , she was much more comfortable .
My thoughts and prayers as always Judy , rest up and enjoy being home !
~~The time is always right , to do what is right ~~ KTQ ~~Kathy
QD- 21-11-11 :)
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Message by Pykke
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I am unable to get into your care pages...they say they don't have my e mail....thus..I tried your home addy..and it came back..Just wanted you to know that you are on my mind daily..as well as sending healing prayers. You are brave beyond words...Blessings on you!!!!Heal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Pykke
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Message by joules
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Oh Judy - I am so sorry that you are fighting such a battle. kudos to you for still trying to help others i know that you have made a difference to me. Thank you
"Never leave another quitter behind" borrowed from BTBasser to whom I owe such a large part of my quit............quit date February 14th 2007
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Message by moondreamer
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Will keep you in my prayers Judy! ((hugs))
The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
-Eleanor Roosevelt
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Message by sweet surrender
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God bless you and know you will be included in my daily prayers. Godspeed to you and may you get every blessing you deserve every day.
Laura
Excellence is the result of caring more than may be wise; risking more than others think is safe, dreaming more than others think is practical and expecting more than others think is possible.
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Message by skipper8
on January 30 2012 at 9:25 am
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glad you are home and hopefully TakIng It Easy !!!!!...
~~The time is always right , to do what is right ~~ KTQ ~~Kathy
QD- 21-11-11 :)
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Message by Desert Chic
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Judy. I think about you and talk with O all of the time about you. I am so glad that you are surrounded by love and light during this trying time. You inspire me to stay quit every time I think of you. Love you!
I'd rather be an ex smoker with the occasional desire to smoke than be a smoker with the constant desire to stop doing it.
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Message by skipper8
on February 03 2012 at 7:49 am
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Hope you are healIng @home and hopefully beIng spoIled !!
~~The time is always right , to do what is right ~~ KTQ ~~Kathy
QD- 21-11-11 :)
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