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I'M BACK
By Carmin on February 20 2012 at 1:01 am

38, Female
South Africa
Member Since: January 04 2012

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Hi everyone,,,,Had no internet access for over a week so I missed my QSJ dearly.

I had a moment of relapse as well. Went to a party and wasn't strong enough. I'm a beer or whiskey drinker by choice. I thought I was strong enough but realised I was sorely mistaken. After throwing back a few beers I just HAD to have a smoke. I mean HAD to!!! I could not control the urge and finally gave in. I smoked the rest of the night.
The next morning I lit up again. And only when I lit the second smoke that morning I looked at it and thought "What the H*#L am I doing!!??? Those first 2 weeks were torture!!! Just torture and here I was putting myself back in that position. It's been 8 days since then and I feel great again.

But I know now that the nico-demon is lurking behind every corner.

This support site is so important!! During my relapse period I cannot tell you all how much I missed being on here. Even though it was just a day it was tough getting back on track.

But I'm here now.................

and clean and that's all that matters..........the here and now

QUIT DATE: 10 JAN 2012
Smoking is yours to Choose or Reject. Which do you embrace?

Message by ltlsqueak

on February 20 2012 at 3:00 am
Location: United States Joined: March 19 2010 Posts: 4006

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(((Welcome Back!)))

So glad you got right back up! Mr. Nicodemon loves to sneak up on us. You CAN do this! Continue to hang in there and remember you're stronger than you think!

Have a blessed week.

Sherri

Quit date: March 22, 2010

Nothing worth having in life is ever easy.

BELIEVE in yourself!

Message by betsy

on February 20 2012 at 6:43 am
Location: United States Joined: January 11 2004 Posts: 30613

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addiction has been called
cunning, baffling and powerful
it waits until we are at our weakest

be ever vigilant
and
glad you are back on track

betsy QD 11/10/03
Today is the best day to not smoke!

Message by peter d

on February 20 2012 at 7:57 am
Location: United States Joined: January 01 2008 Posts: 9813

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It doesn't matter that you fell

It only matters that you got up and started again
good for you,,,,well done Carmin

stay strong,,,,protect your quit
you can do this
8 days is terrific,,,
you are on your way

quit date--Dec 26, 2007
hold on tight to your dream,,,,

Message by qween68

on February 20 2012 at 8:46 am
Location: United States Joined: December 19 2009 Posts: 543

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Sorry to hear you had that little set back but I completely understand. I failed on alot of my quits because of the alchohol. That's why I gave up drinking this last time I quit. After almost 9 months smoke free I can now have a beer without wanting that smoke. It takes a little time but eventually you will be able to have a drink again without smoking.

I WILL STOP SMOKING THIS TIME FOR ME AND MY HEALTH.

Message by PackyLou

on February 20 2012 at 12:54 pm
Location: United States Joined: September 13 2007 Posts: 1570

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the little triggers are so tricky. Once I quit smoking by using hypnosis (I was quit for 15 years that time!) and part of the theory was to also alter your patterns..toothpaste, what you do after a meal, whether or not to quit drinking coffee/alcohol...triggers, I was thinking.

Glad you have your internet back, too!!

"I took the road less traveled by ~
and it has made all the difference..."
QD: 9/10/07

Message by ChinHi

on February 20 2012 at 1:05 pm
Location: United States Joined: July 06 2002 Posts: 25398

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Way to go... getting right back on track is always the best choice. you are strong !
congrats !

KCL = Keep Choosin' LIFE
"Never leave another quitter behind" by BTBASSER
Namaste
Mahalo Karyn and lindy our SHEROs
7/25/01

Message by skipper8

on February 21 2012 at 9:28 am
Location: Canada Joined: July 02 2002 Posts: 12289

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Glad you did not go back to smoking - I think you learned a valuable lesson and are now very dedicated
to keeping your quit- you are right - you never want to do week 1/2 again .

You are already where you want to be.......stick to it like glue :)

~~The time is always right , to do what is right ~~ KTQ ~~Kathy

QD- 21-11-11 :)

Message by Earlz

on February 21 2012 at 3:08 pm - moderator
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Every Smoke Free day counts, trial and error is the way most people travel the road to success
Protect the Children
Quit Date 11/19/2000

Message by hollyo

on February 21 2012 at 6:45 pm
Location: United States Joined: December 08 2010 Posts: 3316

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I've lost many a quit over alcohol, and decided these past couple of quits to just eliminate alcohol from my life until further notice...maybe for good, idk and it doesn't matter much to me right now because my quit is the most important thing and not worth endangering over a drink or two
hollyo
quit date 12/10/10
One Day @ a time
relapsed; 11-12-11
New quit date 1/10/12

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